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Hey there!
Sorry for not updating for sooo..oooo long.
This semester (my 7th) should have been my last semester here, but well, I think I kinda messed up my last semester.
So, let me tell you my story.
On my 6th semester, 2nd block, it was reproduction system block..
In order to pass the block, we had to fulfill the criteria: to pass both theory exam (80%) and skills lab (20%). There were eight skills we had to master. I failed three of them. But then I passed two when I got the chance to fix it on remedial exam. I messed up "IUD installation" exam. The worst thing was I did the same mistake (again). I was supposed to have passed it if only I did not do the same mistake. :( So, there I went. I had my re-remedial exam. But unluckily, I unintentionally and did not pay too much attention and never thought that I would unintentionally pulled the IUD out of the uterus. I just realized it when my examiner told me, "Look where the IUD is."
Oh my goodness. It was unbelievable.
As for the theory exam, I passed it (with * mark which meant my score was below 63.5 and I could retake the exam if I wanted to, to fix my grade). I did retake the exam, though, without thinking I would fail my block. (I supposed there would be a reconsideration, considering I had passed my theory, since the theory exam was reaaaa..aally hard. Even there were only about 20s out of 200 students that passed the exam. But I was wrong).
It was until the announcement on the univ portal website ON MY D-1 THEORY EXAM, NEUROLOGY SYSTEM BLOCK.
It was like a doom. Really. At that time I was thinking, "What's the point to pass this exam if I am about to postpone half a year?".
But, no, I didn't really mess up my neuro block. It's just that I got my first C. :(
Up to the point when I enter my 7th semester, I had no intention to really study too deep, because to me (at least till now), no matter how hard, how deep, or how much you learned, if you didn't pass both your theory and practice exam, there would be no point on learning too much. You'll just end up being disappointed by your high expectation, expecting that if you know better, you will graduate on time. I am no God in judging people, but on my perspective, so many people out there who were just studying to only pass the exam, but their way was as smooth as a cotton.

I've come to the point where I study just to pass the grade. No intention to study too deep, no intention to study to get the knowledge.
I sound pathetic, huh.
But hey, it's more pathetic that you judge a student based on what you do in 10-minute time to the mannequin (which is not real person) and let them fail merely because of that.

My friends are graduating in the end of the semester, whereas, me, postponing my graduation till the end of my next semester.
Sounds too pathetic.

Oh, right, my second written exam is (supposed to be) coming in three days. But today, unexpectedly, we are having an-off-day because of the mass demonstration against Jakarta's governor. Hope it won't get too serious like in the really past. So, the plenary is postponed (should be today, actually). I guess dr. Clement will postpone the exam as well (AHHH I HOPE SO, PLEASEEEE) so I will have an extra day to study (to pass the exam. LOL).

Now, talking about my thesis trial last semester, I did quite well, eventhough I only got a B. Hahahaha. I know, I always have high expectation for me. But, believe me, I could do better than what I did in my thesis trial. Just wasn't too lucky to have dr. **** to be my 1st examiner. LOL.
Even my friends who couldn't answer some questions on the trial got an A. Y'know it's kinda unfair, but well this is life.

So, see ya in my next post, I guess. :)